My true friends know what my addictions are. Now I’m going to share one with you. If you ask me, I’ll tell you that I have a great personality; I help people; I am kind; I enjoys the good people sitting together making the world a better place; and some other good things about me. My friends won’t. I’m not blaming them. It’s just in their nature. When someone asked them their opinion about me, they told that person that I’m a good guy, but then they started pointing out my character in not such a pleasant way. One of them went like this:

“Oh, him? He’s a great guy. He’s kind and all, but he’s sometimes too kind. He helps people too much; solves most of the problems we encounter; not very talkative; not social; but he’s a good friend”

I don’t get it! Why did they say “but”. Maybe they are right about it. But when someone asks about a person, I don’t point out their “flaws” at first. Instead I start telling how good they are in life; what I know that they like. And then I tell the person that if they want to know more, they can just go to the person they are asking about and talk with him/her/it. Of course, I am not talking about random strangers asking about my friends. I’m talking about someone who we know asking about a friend of mine. Sine I don’t get friends with just anyone (because I’m picky), I know many things about my friends. The judgement on the character to say whether it is good or not, is not something I would discuss with anyone.

Anyway, I’m going to put that aside and talk about something else. A friend of mine had pointed out to me that I shouldn’t have become a computer geek. Instead I should have gone and became a director of a movie. Why? Glad you asked! Because every movie I made two years ago was accepted by the group and was chosen as the best movie of that period.

Another friend of mine told me I should have become a photographer, because the photos I too were “artistic”. Some others have also had the same opinion. So I’m glad that my work is something everyone enjoys.

I was having this very very small chat with someone I know. She was looking for an idea for a video. I gave her a simple idea. The same time I was telling her about it, I realized that I have postponed all my productions since two years ago! Then I was thinking of what went wrong that made me stop making movies. I thought about the social life problems that I encountered; the courses I had to do in university; the university projects I was involved in; the personal projects of mine and many other things I did during this period.

Afterwards I told myself that I have to pick it up and continue it starting from today. That’s exactly the moment I remembered the reason I stopped filming and taking photos. It was not because of problems in my social life or the projects I was doing. Nobody disappointed me either in anyway that would impact this matter. It was a simple reason. Perhaps too simple. I basically didn’t have a camera anymore…

For one year after that, I searched to find the most suitable camera for my type of work. Being a student who is trying his best to finish his studies so he can get out in the world, find a job, make money and create a steady life for himself and his future family, it wasn’t the correct move to spend money on something so expensive. So after all the searches, I let it go and here I am now. No movies made; no high goals achieved; no income…

Still paying the university only because I am registered. Right now I’m waiting for my supervisor to finish reading my thesis report. In the meantime, I’m finishing a couple of other reports for a few other projects I did (because I was bored).

Well, i guess that’s it for now. Nothing horrible has happened… I guess… So that’s good…

Wish me luck.

~Peace ouT~

One of the  project I am involved in is a satellite project named Delfi-n3Xt satellite (pronounced delfi next). It’s the second satellite we are building and going to lunch. The first one was named Delfi-C3 which is a 3 cube (10x10x10 cm) satellite.

Website: http://www.n3xt.delfispace.nl

Choose a project and vote for it:

Vote: http://www.ddea.nl/Voteforadesign.aspx

 

~Peace ouT~

I was just watching one of my favorite channels on YouTube. Link is below this post in case you are interested to know what my interests are and would like to watch it…

Anyway…

She wears a dress and she looks even hotter!

After the appearance of the one and only square lamp, she mentions my user name Yaaaaaay for me…

So here’s a shout out to her (lobi89) and her channel.

Visit her on YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/user/lobi89

And here’s the link to the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaVCH4dmemM

~Peace ouT~

The weather is still changing from one state to another. It’s sunny outside. Yesterday was cloudy. It will become cloudy again. No chance of meatballs though! The sun is high and it’s beautiful outside. Instead of being happy I’m sad. Perhaps it’s all because I’m just tired of being alone. I don’t know. I’m not sure. I have almost everything I could imagine. I have a student life. Soon I’ll be working. But I don’t like to reach everything just by myself…

I want the special one next to me along this way. We both will achieve our goals together. We both work hard on making our lives. Make it better. And better…

My friend always tells me not to think about it. It will happen. You’ll see her, she’ll see you. And you both will just know it…

I’m not going to argue with that. I’m just getting older and older. I don’t see anyone wanting to live with me because they like me at first when they see me. When I get old, I won’t be in shape anymore. There will not be anything appealing about me. The only outstanding feature of mine might be my job and the money I’ll be earning! That is not good! I don’t want someone to be interested in me because of my money!…

I will continue as I have done till now. I will go towards my life goals except one. I’ll go towards them staying single. I’m tired of searching and not finding… I’ll give it a rest and will begin the search again after a while… I’m not sure who I’ll find. But I know this: if I’m not good enough for someone I really care, I should not care about her anymore!

It’s not easy for me. It’s not in my nature to just forget about someone and let go of them…

In any case… I know I will find the one…

~Peace ouT~

It’s almost time for me to graduate. Have to finish my thesis report by the end of this week, show it to my supy and make a date for my defense. However, it seems like it’s taking a long long long time for me to write. It takes one day for me to finish writing one page. Just one page and not even more

I came here at my friend’s, since we both have to write our thesis and hand it in asap (max end of this week), but instead we are listening to music, drinking tea, jumping up and down and not writing. Oh yes! We also do chat with others! It’s Monday! I’ve labeled it “the lazy day”.

So right before I started writing this blog, we were listening to the followings: Unwell. Then, With Arms Wide Open. Then I listened to My Sacrifice. Now I’m listening to It’s Not Easy To Be Me…

Who knows what happens next…

~Peace ouT~

Today is Monday 24th of August 2009. It’s the first day for schools, university and whatever system that looks like school. Today is the day that many young children go to their second home for the first time. The kindergarten. It is the day that the parents watch their kids go away from them to learn new things, educate in the path of life and hopefully become someone in the following years. The day the teachers have to start over again with the same classes, the same books and perhaps the same methods but with a slightly difference: there are new kids in the class. This is the day that the teachers give the kindergarten children the knowledge of social life; the understanding of their environment; make them experience new things in life; and most important of all, they try to teach them to live in peace.

The kids who were in the kindergarten last year and begin their first year of the school today are prepared with new pads and pencils in their back bags along with their sack lunch made by their parents. They go there to continue the education and of course gain more experience. They are one step ahead of the kindergarten, but there is still a long long way ahead of them.

They continue their education till the last year of school with believing that they can do good in this world. They become ready during these last years of to work in the society and try to make it a better place. They gain a whole new type of experience in this path as well. It is this experience that is gained based on their knowledge that will make someone special out of them. Work in small store, a supermarket, teach other children, police station, fire department, medical facilities, radio, television, theaters and many many other places.

This was a high point for a small child starting at the kindergarten. But everyone knows that there is still a long long way ahead. Some people have made it to a higher point by continuing their study or finding a job that was their goal or getting married or even a combination of these and other things in life; but some didn’t no matter how hard they have tried. The society they lived in could only prepare them until this point. More than this was not possible for everyone who wanted it. It could only become available to some of them. That’s when they realized that there must be a way to make their life better. This is where they find other ways and based on their knowledge and experience, they try them. Some of them will find a job and work as hard as they can to have some money saved for future of their education. Some of them will gather money by becoming criminals in the eyes of the society. Some will stop what they began after a while and continue with their life in a simple and steady path.

With all the experience they have gained, they understand the world around them better. They are young and full of energy. They have come to a place where it has the rules of its own and is a society for itself. They have finally made it to the university.

For the first time they encounter a new place different from the previous education system they have spend almost fifteen years of their life in. They experience new methods for understanding. New methods of looking  at the environment, the people and the things around them. With this faster rate of gaining knowledge, they feel more powerful in their mind. They come to realize that what they knew until now was just a small slice of what they have learned during this one year that they have spent in this new society. But only some of them realize this and from these knowledge seekers, only some of them will understand how long and never ending this path is. They seek out to find new people to go as far as they can with education. But they know that the education by itself will not make them go further along this way. It was with the help of the experience they gained that they have come so far and this experience was gained with their education and the education would not have come this far if there was no curiosity in us.

Every once in a while that we learn something, we realize that we have just added a new path to our life. A new way of looking at things. A new method of dealing with situations and solving problems. A new meaning to the the world as we knew it. A new reason to live.

These are the never-ending firsts in our lives that have widen our look.

May they never end.

~Peace ouT~

I’m not feeling well enough to write anything. Can’t update my Twitter either. For some reason it just doesn’t! I’ll update this post later sometime when I can write…

~P…T~

Right?

Well… Happy 12:34:56 07-08-09 everyone! ^_^

~Peace ouT~

I was writing an essay and listening to a cool music. I made a play-list and just let it play. Somewhere in the middle of my writings, I switched to watch the music video to entertain myself. I was looking at the singer and her partner. They are both hot! I’m jealous of the guy actually in a way. He’s sooo hot! The lead singer is also smoking hot! I mean she is like… Uhmm… Anyway she’s hot. So it’s some time between 2:00 and 2:15 in the morning when a in one scene I see her face expression in the exact same way a friend of mine makes it! It was like wow! That’s when I realized that my friend has a star face. Not a five pointed star shaped face! I mean a celebrity… Right, sorry! I know you know what I meant. I just thought you didn’t so I made myself clear that I’m not talking about a pointy star that we draw when… Never mind…

So the only differences would be that my friend is shorter than the singer (in height) and with black hair instead of blond! There are many other differences there too but not in the appearance. These other differences would be each person’s character and the stuff that  actually makes them different.

The similarity between them is their face (the eyes, cheeks, lips, etc.) and the fact that they both sing great! Their voice is a bit different, but they both sing great! I don’t! I don’t know why! I lost my pr… Anyway…

Music is meant to be fun… When the beats are slow, they break my flow…

Oh baby… Baby… Baby… Here’s my creation…

So let me present now the redefinition of disco… A new kind of Go Go… That will pump in your heart till the beat falls apart in the sunlight…

So there is this small tiny device I have built which scans for heat sources. I connect it to my computer and I can do whatever I want with the data I receive. It can find anything that generates heat  more than the absolute zero. It seems simple to you all, right? Well good! Then you know what I have built.

Yes! You can’t be more right! It’s an infrared scanner!

What I do with it is not important to anyone. No one cares. Not even if I tell them or make it sound great. No matter what! They just won’t care at all about it. It’s fine. I mean I’m not going to tell anyone about what I would or wouldn’t do with it. So they can all just relax with less stuff to think about! You know why I won’t tell?

Every little thing matters. If something I did before or designed/created/built/whatever before seems to be useful in one situation (or perhaps two), with this scanner I can combine and use further more… So…

Sing with me and tingle my brain…

Baby… Baby… Baby… I love this creation…

~Peace ouT~

It has been a long long time since the last time I published a post here! It’s summber everyone goes on vacation and having fun and stuff like that. It’s awesome! I don’t get to go on vacation or any break! I’m still working!

Well that’s life!!!

~Peace ouT~